Do you know how it feels to be a fcuking loser?
To hate yourself, your skin, your soul, every min of your existence?
And to love it all @ the same time, to the same fcuking extent?
Have you ever felt so sick to your stomach, so disgusted @ your own being?
Have you ever wanted to kill yourself and felt ashamed @ your desire to live, even after having proved not just to your own self that you are a fcuking loser?
Have you ever cried your heart out, in silent sobs, in darkness, too ashamed of your defeat inlife, of your own uselessness?
Have you ever felt like you are a constant burden, walking this earth, shitting all over the place, leaving behind your stink?
And felt the world wrinkle its nose, look @ you with the utmost contempt and disgust for you are a loathsome being...
Felt it all even though you do not have the fcuking guts to turn & look for the stench is too bad even though it is your own...
Have you ever showed your finger in your mind, to "whatever it is that brought you into existence", for it is a fcuked up job and you know it well coz you are that job?
Have you ever felt like a fcuking loser, right in the middle of the world...
Blocking the path of everyone near and around you...
Making them hate you every min though they might not be able to say it all to you...
Have you ever screwed up every time, every time a person tries to clean you up, tries to make you over... And right at that moment when they try, you shit again, stinking more than before...
Have you ever ever ever felt like a fcuking loser?
Well...I have not!!!
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